I sit.
Terrified.
Verging on tears.
The terror.
The horror.
The worst part?
It all me.
My fault I feel this Way.
My fault I fEar theSe things.
I fear your loss.
Or rather my loss of you.
You say you are here to stay.
You say you will never leave.
But I fear that another is going to take you from me.
I fear that anoTher will be Able to Give you more.
All I can Give is my lovE.
All I want to Do is hold you.
All I want is to be with you forever.
I love you.
I always will.
My fear is strong.
But my love is stronger.
I want to ask.
I want to know that you will never leave me.
I want to hear your voice and feel your touch for the rest of my life.
Every day would be wonderful.
So long as you are there.
You tell me all is well.
You tell me it will be fine.
I feel your truth in your words.
I know you are intent on me.
But I Just want to be assUred.
I want you to help.
But aGain the fear Grips me.
ThAt if I ask or say anything.
You wiLl leave.
Leave me for nOt trusting.
Leave me for not believing.
Though I do believe.
I just want to know.....